last week had been a very horrible one for me. my grandfather had just passed away on the 24 of june 2008 at 6.42am in the morning. he had some breathing problems while he was alife because of his pass jobs, but he is actually very strong althought he lost one of his legs and have a spoilt hand. but i think he really cannot make it this time and he passed away on this very sad day. my mum said he passed away peacefully. i really miss him so much. the laughter that he had given me since i was born. [i stayed with my ah gong since i was a baby.] at the instant when i know my grandfather passed away, all i can say is i am damn sad. i cannot stop crying! my mum told me that my grandfather's wish to see me go university. when i was in the hospital, i just cannot stop crying, i went to my grandfather's bed tried to wake him up, but i failed. he bluff me, he said he wan to c me go university, but he didn't! he bluff me! )))): because we cannot get the body back today, so went to school with the sucky mood lah. only went after 10 plus. then all my friends are so caring lah. really. but i just can't make myself smile. i am just crying till i have this headache that make my head feels like it is exploding! but i tell myself i must study! i must go university and let my grandfather see the cert! so i studied. but i am very very sad lah! then never go to school from wednesday to friday. got back the body, did some rituals and then see my grandfather's face the last time in the coffin. very very sad! ))))))): for the next few days, keep burning the "papers" for my grandfather. until i got rashes i think is because it is dirty lah. then a lot ppl and relatives came. shinyi, her mum, melissa, shihong and leeyuen came too. thanks for coming. (: really. then a lot ppl smsed me and cheer me up too. i really thanks u ppl a lot. then friday night have the last ritual and burnt the paper house for my grandfather. did a lot of "gold" for him too. did not have sufficient sleep these few days also. just miss my ah gong lah! ))): haiss. saturday, he was brought to the mandai crematorium and i really cried, i dun think i had ever cried until like that. till me whole head pain! and cracking! i just miss him lah!!! then sunday went to take back the bone ashes. the person in charge says that my ah gong was a very good person. he say we can c from the bones colour. my ah gong have a lot of colours on his bone. i feel so happy for him lah, i noe he will go to heaven and watch on my family. all i can say is i will love and miss my ah gong always! i will meet u someday on top! love you always ah gong! )):
today went to school and tried to be as my original self as possible cos everyone wan to c it. i think i succeeded. but i wun be like this at home. i knew it. i tried not to tok about my grandpa, but he will always be in my heart. then got folkdance and it was quite fun lah. then went off early and get locked in the ava room for a while, because of zisong lah. ok. shall not elaborate further. hope tomorrow will be the same.
and not to forget i wan to thank all those ppl huu had helped me get through this period of tough time. really if not for u all, i think i had already burst my brains and stuff. but really thank you a lot! they are, kuanghuei, ridhuan, melissa, bryan, shihong, shihan, shinyi, chuenliang, james, yijun, zhixiong, cailing, haikel, zisong, zengkeong, jialing. thank you ppl! especially ppl like zisong, melissa and kuanghuei. zisong called me almost all the nights to comfort me and tell me about the sc job except when he is sick. thank you "daddy"! then melissa smsed me and comfort me, and even came to the funeral lah. thanks melissa(: then kuang huei smsed me everyday and comfort me throughout the whole week! sorry if your bill burst. thank you kuanghuei. but i really wan to thanks those ppl huu had help me! thanks! i love u all always! (: thanks so much.

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