lessons as per normal lor, lips crack and bleed for like one hour. lols. after school went to 1H and bad things happened, say later. went for dental and helped huishi choose her colour. lols. cute sia the colour, i got my mould of my teeth le. handphone not ready yet haiss. gb tomorrow...
i dunno wat happened to me these few days, i am not myself, i am just feeling so down? homework is all in my mind! problems with my friends? stress over everything! xueyi! haiss. i cried yesterday and today! oh man! wat's wrong with me? i just told off 1H today! my facilitating class. how can this be? i love them so much, but i scolded them. but i just wanted them to noe wat i mean. i hope i could get a message in them, but the worst thing is, ppl showed attitude to me, telling me that i had been using the same word "initiative", but that is the fact. haiss, nvm, i am useless. i noe myself, if i dun love them and i dun care for them, i would not be standing in front of the class scolding them. cos i really hope u ppl would understand, letting me stand in front of 38 cute and loveable ppl and scold them is not that simple. i took a lot of courage to do that. but i just wan u ppl to noe that i care for u all, i wan u ppl to win. i already helped u all in watever ways i could, but is not enough for only me to help or even huishi, we are not in your class. wat is the certificate at the door for? for deco? or are u all just trying to tell me that u dun think u all deserve the certificate? i am very sad seeing your class being like, separated? where is the teamwork? 1h oh 1h.. where is the spirit of the camp? maybe u ppl would think that i am crapping here, but i still have to say. i love u ppl damn loads, scolding u ppl doesn't make me feel better too. i am actually feeling more hurt than u all do. i always tell myself, i have already helped u all alot, i am not going to help anymore, but everytime i walked pass your class, i c u ppl, i noe that i should help already. sorry if i am harsh this afternoon, i apologised. i always have this principle in my heart, once a best class in my heart, it would always be a best class. i noe some of u might hate me now, but i have to do this ok? sorry. i will try to still helped as much as possible. sorry ppl ): i am useless. but i can say something, and i am very sure of it, i still love 1H alot.
but still thanks siwei, huishi, kengyee, jarren, zisong, gina, lena, and a few 1h ppl for comforting me. thanks. i love u ppl!
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